best week--- to possibly the worst

Last week i was having just about the best week ever. It's funny actually; i should have never said anything cause this week has been hell. (and that's just to put it in some nice words)
It's incredible how things go from the best to the worst. It's amazing how one small decision changes the rest. How one "yes" changes your life. One smile, one handshake, one hug, one kiss; it changes it all. everything. and you can't go back and change it. That's the worst thing of all.
I really don't want to say much about the whole situation. The whole thing is killing me in the inside, and it's actually crazy that it is. I don't even understand why!? Like why would i even fall for him? Why did I fall into his little traps? As stupid as it is, i want to regret it so badly, but i don't think my heart will allow it to.
Right now I'm trying to get by as best as I can. amazingly I am. Without the amazing friends that i have, i would not know what to do.
Next, guys really don't know what they want. really, one moment you want the girl, and the next you don't want her in your life. really? is that what you want?
again, it's amazing how much i miss his smile and those amazing eyes.
hasta later,
rocio

P.S. I really do hope things will get better by next week.
P.P.S. (ha) well, sorry for rambling on about this "depressing" subject. The nest one will be happier. :)